Big D is 12 Today

Wow I feel old today - Big D turned 12. It's amazing to me. It's so hard to believe that I have a 12 year old - I'm only 28 (Yeah that's right I would have been 16 if I had given birth). I admit I struggle to connect with Big D. A lot has to do with my mother in law. I'm learning to change what I can and accept what I can't. Life is too short to be bitter right?

I am going to rant for a minute about today. My mil is having pizza and a special dessert for Big D tonight at their house. This is after I had already planned a family meal - but of course my got cancelled. What makes me the most upset is that when Lil P turned 2 she didn't get him a gift or acknowledge in anyway it was his birthday - which is fine but treat them the same.

I guess I just don't get how someone can love one child more than another. I'm just so so thankful to have my parents and know that they honestly and truly treat both boys the same. Papa has an extra special place in his heart for Lil P and I'm glad he has that.

I look at both my boys and they are both so so different it's crazy. Who would have thought that two boys could be polar opposites. Big D is shy, tender hearted, gets into trouble, doesn't listen most of the time, but overall a good kid. Lil P is so out spoken, never quiet about anything, a dare devil, strong willed, loves his mommy and he too is a great kid.